inconsistencies
one time we decide on doing things this way,
and the next series we might come out deviating,
or totally changing,
or worse,
contradicting the initial act.
i have committed myself into a resolution which i have pondered on and reflected for so long. it took me pains and tears to finally accept this decision, yet in a stroke of a finger, i have to reconsider. this is another inconsistency i am acknowledging. it is an inconsistency i had to embrace. many get to be criticized for the inconsistencies of their actions... they may have a valid point.
strange, that what is so consistent in me is my being so inconsistent... for reasons that are valid for me, which are not necessarily valid for others.
i hope i don't sound to be defensive, or justifying or rationalizing....
while it pains not to be consistent,
this is but an embrace of suffering,
a suffering meant to be offered,
an offering meant to transcend,
a transcendence meant to give meaning of what is and what is not,
-- a meaning meant for me,
for only God and I could both understand.
and the next series we might come out deviating,
or totally changing,
or worse,
contradicting the initial act.
i have committed myself into a resolution which i have pondered on and reflected for so long. it took me pains and tears to finally accept this decision, yet in a stroke of a finger, i have to reconsider. this is another inconsistency i am acknowledging. it is an inconsistency i had to embrace. many get to be criticized for the inconsistencies of their actions... they may have a valid point.
strange, that what is so consistent in me is my being so inconsistent... for reasons that are valid for me, which are not necessarily valid for others.
i hope i don't sound to be defensive, or justifying or rationalizing....
while it pains not to be consistent,
this is but an embrace of suffering,
a suffering meant to be offered,
an offering meant to transcend,
a transcendence meant to give meaning of what is and what is not,
-- a meaning meant for me,
for only God and I could both understand.