Chronicles of the Daily Grind

How do I make myself tamed?
How do I make myself to mellow down?
... to be humble
... not because people impose me
... not because situation call for me to...
I know humility is a grace from God,
and yet requires human effort.
How can I do that when I am clouded with frustrations and chained with pains?
How is that possible when I already see myself so low?
How could I make it when people already judge me as stubborn and proud?
How could I act on it without the intention of pleasing anyone?
How?
How possible is that when it requires a bending of my nature?
How could I do that when it goes against the principles and beliefs I have held for so long?
Lord, help me to renew myself, to renew me within.
Quell the battle inside of me, Lord.
I really want to be simple.
Lord, teach me to love.

Posted by brodiz at 10:41 AM | Permalink | Comments

I have forgotten that I sent this email message to someone:

"issues and crises are part of this vocation. our novitiate initiates us to that. religious life is indeed a calvary...it's difficult...not that i am being pessimistic (although i am a pessimist)...what saves our vocation is the fact that we are happy despite the difficulties. kung hindi ako masya, hinding-hindi ako magtitiis ng ganito."

Well, the tables have turned... this message seemed to encourage that person. The funny thing is: it went back to me. I never realized that I already have the answers to my questions. It takes somebody else to draw that from me.

for you... thanks!

Posted by brodiz at 2:32 PM | Permalink | Comments

Never underestimate the power of the WILL!

After series of activities lined up for the summer in the postnov particularly that accademia when the brothers offered a dance presentation for Mary on her feast, I was not that excited to go for the hike. I fear a weakening of my physical condition. I worry on the possible illness and physical shutdown awaiting for me at pulag considering the strenuous effort I had to spend and the freezing climate welcoming me.

It is further difficult to plan, organize and execute the preparations of the said hiking activity with your heart not into it. So I had to really motivate myself. And I did.

The hike to Pulag grew with flesh and blood.

I never thought that I could stretch myself further. I never realized that i could surpass my limitations. It takes one strong will and determination to conquer.

It is not the Pulag that I have really conquered. I conquered myself.
I will never forget this experience.

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